The painful year that is 2017 was also He one that birthed many reflections, and today’s post will also be one based on 2017.
I probably mentioned this before but one red light in 2017 was how I started to become less me and more of what others wanted of me. I’m loud, shameless and unabashed about anything. In 2017, those qualities changed, or even if they shined through, it’s always through a filter of political correctness or dignity. One might argue that is wisdom, but I say that wisdom’s focus is doing the right thing at the right time, not necessarily the non-me thing all the time in a bid to be accepted by my friend(s).
My sense of identity is definitely correlated with my sense of intimacy, and whoever I’m intimate with I become like them. That’s why in 2016 I started to enjoy more K-drama. That’s why in 2017 I started to become a bit more uncomfortable talking about Jesus, whereas under normal circumstances I wouldn’t care about any drama, much less Korean ones, and when any opportunity arises I would talk about His saving grace. In 2018, my identity has been thankfully renewed in Christ, and thus I’m really living out who God wants me to me, and I’m thankful for the many victories so far this year.
What happened in 2017 is but a microcosm of the rest of society. We become what we deeply value and cherish, and thus need to be careful to let God have the honor and nothing or no one else. If we were to change who we are for someone else, we wouldn’t be true to ourselves. Love, romantic or otherwise, chooses to care for who you are, be it he good, bad and ugly. If your intimacy is in God, you become who He wants you to be as your new identity. The difference is that in the former, you change your identity in order to satisfy someone else’s, whereas in there latter, you embrace your identity in Him. The real you is found in Him anyway.
One thing certain in 2018 is that I’m never changing who I am for anyone, except the One who saw me in my mess and loves me anyway. May you also pursue the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, and embrace His vision for you as your true self.
—Joel Kindiak, 21 Mar 18, 0720H