When I entered 2018, I knew from the onset that the problems created in 2017 won’t immediately die out, and that every now and then I will still be challenged by them. This morning was one such morning. The Year of His Glory doesn’t mean that all my problems magically disappear, rather, that the grace of God causes me to overcome these problems, unto His glory, step-by-step.
Today I’m going to flashback on 2013, the best year of my life so far. I have faith that 2018 will surpass 2013 in glory, so I want to take a look at the glory moments in 2013 and how God really blessed that year with His unmerited favor.
Ministry-wise, 2013 was the year in which I was most active in serving God. I had been in the dance ministry since 2011 and continued in 2013 up till the Easter performance, after which I left the ministry. I was also involved with the usher team in the children’s ministry. In fact, it was from this group I got to know Faith, who till date is still one of my closest friends of all time. And I have no doubt out serving has been incredibly encouraging to the children who do attend the children’s services on Sunday.
I pray for even more spiritual prosperity with serving in church in 2018, that whatever prosperity has been given in 2013 will double in 2018.
In school I was not idle. Once I preached about the burnt and sin offerings, and how because of Jesus we can have fresh fellowship with God, and the other was an awards presentation for a Math challenge a few schoolmates and I were a team in, to which we got first…runner up, causing everyone to laugh. In May that year a few friends and I started a cell group in school, and we would meet every Friday afternoon to fellowship and learn from God’s word. Some time in August I got drunk in the Holy Spirit and stood on the teacher’s table to preach the gospel to my classmates, to which no one actually walked out on me even though they had all the right to. My school cellmates and I even did classroom evangelism and about five people made a decision to follow Christ. (Our follow-up was terrible though, so that’s an area to improve in 2018.) My reputation in my batch was “the attention-seeking Michael Jackson”, but my reputation in the batch after me was “the guy who preached during morning devotion”.
I pray for even more spiritual prosperity with the bible studies and the spontaneous evangelism in 2018, that is, serving God outside of church, and that whatever prosperity has been given in 2013 will double in 2018.
Academically I was prospering, and with every test came fresh grace and diligence to work hard and smart, that I may excel for His glory. My results got better and better, and in the O Levels I could choose practically any JC I wanted to go.
I pray for academic prosperity and prosperity in my workplace as I work for His glory and excel for His glory, empowered and directed purely by His grace. May whatever workforce and academic prosperity given in 2013 double in 2018. May the math sessions be a blessing to both my students and myself, as they learn to work hard and smart and therefore excel in their Math papers.
Friendships-wise was very interesting. For the first 6 months I had no friends, but due to intimacy with God I was incredibly happy. For the last 6 months I got to know Daniel and Jonathan, whom I’m still incredibly close to till this day. In fact we’re meeting once a month for bible studies: a testament to God’s faithfulness in drawing us close to Him and to one another. 2013 was the best year ever even though I did not have many friends.
May 2018 double that of 2013 in the department of joy, with or without friends. Also may 2018 be the year my friendship with my best friend last year be restored to closeness and godly intimacy, that is, knowing, loving and cherishing each other that points us to God’s intimacy with us, just like with Faith, with Daniel and Jonathan, with Ting Wei, with Shun Xian, with Samuel and Bryan and so on.
This brings me back to the present of 2018. I look at other people and wonder how is it so easy for them to make close friends, whereas for me it is so difficult to even hope to start one. This morning was one such moment of inadequacy, and while it was a lot more manageable than 2017, it still hurt. Though we saw the beginning of this new friendship in the end of December last year, I’m still not ready to fully reconcile, and this emotional wound has got to first heal up before I can interact with her again and work on rebuilding the precious friendship that I destroyed.
May I experience complete healing in the area of friendships and feelings of unworthiness that arise from a relative lack of close friends. May I be made completely whole whether with friends who are close or not, whether with girlfriend or not, because the Lord is my hope.
May 2018 really be the Year of His Glory in every area of my life, surpassing the glory in 2013.
-Joel Kindiak, 11 Jan 18, 0841H