Since my re-revelation of unmerited favor, I’m definitely seeing my life turn out for the better.
The principle is that I can show kindness to people who don’t deserve it because God had shown me kindness that I don’t deserve.
One example will be a particular superior in my unit who shall remain unnamed for confidentiality purposes. I get scolded by her for no apparent reason, and even when I’m right. she will find any and every reason to blame me, like leaving early (even though that’s rightful since I did come early) or nor completing a minor task (even though I was busy with a major one). I’m thankful that I don’t need to retaliate because God will do that for me. In fact, it would be awesome for her to know Christ through me too. Yet, I can rest in God’s unmerited favor for me, and find little reason to fight fire with fire. Let God’s grace work, I rest!
Another instance would be in texting. By my very nature I like to reply as soon as I’m available and do not ignore texts from people I know (strangers…that’s a different story). And it does get infuriating when I’m having a nice conversation and it suddenly gets killed by non-responsiveness. Heck it was this very issue that triggered me into a spiral of depression about a month ago. Yet, now that I’m under God’s unmerited favor, that is, favor that I receive without any merit of my own, I can show my friends who ignore me unmerited favor, that is, favor that they receive without any merit of their own. I can be gracious to them and give benefit of the doubt, when in time past I did not know how to.
Most significantly, I’ve learnt to show myself favor. I get thoughts of how I screw up, whether I actually did or not, and when I do, I ask God for a fresh dose of His unmerited favor, not that I don’t have it, but calling upon Him about what I do already have. I’ve learnt to not condemn myself and to enjoy the abundant joy I was talking about pre-2017. It’s all because of His unmerited favor I can live a free life.
And it’s not like life will automatically become easier. Not all my prayers will be answered immediately nor my wishes magically granted. Much work is still needed in many of my burnt bridges, much patience is still need in my workplace when I get chased to get work done and much intentionality is still needed to grow close to my friends with whom I have had fatal misunderstandings with. Yet, I know that God has gone through and is giving me unmerited favor to complete them all, and I can enjoy the rest of the year, with my friends or alone, busy or free.
I’ve got God’s unmerited favor and that’s all that matters.